being there . . . .

Suffered a lot during the past weeks, and I can be sure to tell you, the starting of my 2010 is the worst year of my whole 23 years. I can be very sure to tell you that. I think this time I really did it, I hurt a lot of friends, and sincerely thanks to those who rushed over and accompanied me. I really needed that a lot. And thanks for the work, I don’t get much chance to think of the sad things, I don’t really share most of my feelings with friends, I’m sorry I can’t do that. I am very weak. Yes, I refuse to share, as I don’t want to accept some facts. Yes and I am stubborn to admit some of the words and advice given, I choose to ignore. Is it wrong to protect yourself from being harmed? Is it wrong? I am very tired, and I am very scared. NO ONE out there, can be trusted. I am sorry, I never used to have this phrase in my dictionary, but lately, I have to admit, I managed to catch few. How lucky am I ?

I went back on Friday night, was really tired after work, but I know, this trip back is something that I really really need for 2 months already. When I arrived, when I saw mum, I don’t know why I just felt like hugging her tight and sob like a kid, but I held my feelings. After bathing, had a little pillow talk with mum while waiting for my hair to dry. Then I went to bed after that as I have 2 long days to go after that.

Woke up around 6.30am, cleaned myself and drove to school. It’s been such a long time since I last trained. Yizuan came up to me and asked me “senpai, are you ok ? Don’t emo d la . . . “. Thanks for the concern. I appreciate that a lot. Never knew anyone would actually pay attention. Met sir, had a little chat, renewed my membership and joined a little of the training. Sir asked me to go for my next upgrade. Should I go ?

After class, went and meet up with Cikgu to borrow his flash. Then I headed off to Sywen Hotel where the convention is. Waited for some colleagues to arrive and took them out for lunch. After lunch, headed back to the hotel for the DAPSY Convention. Which lasted for few hours. After that, we went for dinner and some of them followed me home. I’ve decided to stay overnight in the hotel as there’s an extra space. Went home to park the car back for mum to use and also invite colleagues over to sit sit while I go bathe and pack my luggage. Cut the crap and just go to the next day.

Woke up around 5.30 in the morning of Sunday. Got myself changed and went for breakfast downstairs at the lobby. After breakfast, headed to 2nd floor to help up with the set up of booth registrations. For 14 states, volunteers, observers, media, and committee members. Registration lasted for few hours, slowly around 10am, the whole place was crowded like MAD. Then I went and took pictures of the overall event, and also shots for our next issue of Rocket Paper. After everything ended around 7.30?, we headed to “tong sui kai” for dinner, after dinner, parents picked me up while the other departed back to KL.

Don’ want to talk to much about the Convention since not everyone would be interested to know and read about it. Well after that, I spent my 2 days of holiday with dad and mum, but mostly was with mum. Went out with her, and mum  dyed her hair 🙂 I did mine too, and I went surveying for musical instruments around and found what I wanted with a reasonable price. Not going to tell what it is until I master it, but thanks mum, you made my day ^^
I’m back into my room now, writing this update, and I hope this week would do fine for me.

I admit I am ignoring some people, and some people that I do not wish to see for the moment. I hope those people won’t get offended, I’m sorry. Please do not bug in at the wrong time. I need to work.

That’s all I guess, here’s a song dedication to all my friends. Thanks for helping me stand up again. Too many to be thanked. I love you guys. Without you, I  might have left this world. Last 2 weeks was the toughest time for me. Thanks for being there. And thanks for understanding my situation.


YOU RAISE ME UP
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life – no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

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4 thoughts on “being there . . . .

  1. Hey potter. Stay strong buddy. Life will continue to give us lemons. It’s sour to the core, but when that gets to you, put a lil sugar (sweet friends and family) and water (cry a lil) to turn it into lemonade. Hope this makes sense. Cos I’m losing my edge these days… Haha^^

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