something I want to say . . .

Previous posts, I’ve been busy promoting for Comic Fiesta 2009 and so fast, it’s over. Another year has gone. And of course I bet everyone would be looking forward for the next one ^^
I am very thankful to all the volunteers who came and helped, really appreciated it. Although we face some minor problems on Day1, Day2 we boost up after Day1’s post Morten 🙂 I will update about CF later on after new year mostly. I promise as I am still gathering pictures and yeah, I made a sudden decision to head down to Singapore this Friday. ( Thanks to Shiro ) psycho me for the whole week. LOL. So see you guys in EOY!!!

I thought I would K.O. since I didn’t really have proper sleep for days, or I can say weeks before the event? I applied for a day leave on Monday (21st December) but sadly, I woke up the usual time for work and I had to head back to office for an important meeting. After the meeting, rushed to watch Avatar 3D with SW and Shio. And sadly after that, something happened and I ruined everything which I don’t feel like saying it in detail. Just want to say sorry to SW the most, followed up by Shio and also CC. Thanks a lot for being understanding. I don’t know what went wrong, I was like a child that day. My temper and mood was very bad. And I just feel like punching someone in the face, but I resisted and end up driving off just like that and made everyone around me worried. You can HATE ME, you can be ANGRY OF ME, you can just SCOLD or even HIT ME. I’M VERY SORRY. When I drove away, I desperately wanted to drive away and crash on something, so that I would just DIE and let everyone live peacefully without even seeing me ever again, but I just didn’t know why, suddenly I was afraid to DIE. I just don’t know why.

I don’t get it! Is it because I did not see you too long? I’m used to being alone for too long? And suddenly you just came by and accompanied me for so long. I’m just not used to it. Seriously not used to it I must say. Anyway, what has happened shall be kept as a memory, something to remind me not to let it happen again.

Here’s a song dedication to the 3 of you. Especially to SW. I think part of the lyrics represents what I want to say.
Hope things are back to normal. And I’m sorry again for crapping and whining again. I bet friends are sick of reading my blog now. I’m sorry for not being tough, and I’m sorry for another BREAKDOWN. Take care everyone. I love you guys very much. For always being there giving me support and strength to stand back up. Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2010. May god bless you all and you’ll start a new challenging life in year 2010.

by Akon :: Sorry, Blame It On Me

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I am not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry the FEDS came and took me away


I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
Enter 21 you know the club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
For rising back out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me


One thought on “something I want to say . . .

  1. Wow! Problems are even a problem.I don’t know how help you, I am not good with advices. I can only wish that you feel better in the next year.Take it easy with your car and happy new year!

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